Monday, April 30, 2007

Transient living.

Today is the last day of living in my apartment in Redmond. The thought is definitely bittersweet. I am extremely excited about changing jobs, and being closer to good friends and family. Moving to Yakima is

That's as far as I got, then a co-worker looked over my shoulder and I got distracted because I hate that.

I'm back now, but I'm going to go.

This job is useless.

Thursday, April 26, 2007


Can't get enough of this song lately. I love the idea of asking God for outrageous things.

YHWH, show me the kingdom.

He is so graceful to listen at all, but we get to make outrageous claims in his name and he backs us up.

Hmm. Lord I ask for Microsoft today.

My mind breaks at the thought of it.

b.dillon rocks.

The Kingdom

It tapped me on the shoulder
Today when I got home
I saw everything collecting dust
It made me hope there was something more
I pour over pages
Desperate to find out why
The cripple at your table
Has what I'm longing to find

Teach me how to hum it
Because I don't know the words yet

Help me see the light
I'm reaching through the fight
Yahweh, show me the Kingdom
Arms open wide
Death swallowed up by life
Yahweh, show me the Kingdom

Why are some women barren
While the wicked's house is full
The stories never seem to end
Give me evidence I'm not alone
You said the weak would be lifted up
But maybe just not yet
So while I wait in this flesh and blood
I'll learn to lean in

Help me see the light
I'm reaching through the fight
Yahweh, show me the Kingdom
Arms open wide
Death swallowed up by life
Yahweh, show me the Kingdom

The Kingdom, the Kingdom
The Kingdom, the Kingdom

Tuesday, April 24, 2007


I just farted with my headphones on and I'm not sure how loud it was.


Monday, April 23, 2007

the sweeping insensitivity, of this

I enjoy the new shane & shane "bluegrass sampler". If you haven't heard it, it's on iTunes and it's 2.99$. Not too bad.

I rode my bike about 8 miles'ish tonight. I accidentally knocked it over and did the step-on-it-realize-it-try-to-reduce-damage-by-collapsing-to-the-floor move though, so I think everything will probably be ok.

The shifting is a bit janky now though. I swear if I broke something already, that would probably be a new world record.

Paul Graham is a pretty smart computer guy. I admire his passion. I briefly discussed his essay about starting your own start-up with my Dad while he was here today. Now, I know for a fact that if I (tried starting) started a company my Dad would unquestioningly support me. Probably help me with the numbers too. Anyway, his (my father's) response was that you have to be obsessed and I'm just not that way.

Instantly I was miffed.


He's absolutely right, I haven't been obsessive about my "success" in life. I haven't really had to be though. Paul mentions in his essay that the way to see if you have the "drive" or the "obsession" to start one is that if someone tells you that you don't have it, you're instantly defensive .

While I don't have the killer drive, I know what it means to stay in a lab and work on a piece of code for "as long as it takes". I've stayed at work to work on code that wasn't even assigned to me. I don't think that piece of my brain is missing, is what I'm getting at, it's just that I've set my life up in such a way that I don't need to access it. At least not very often.

I am excited about this coming year, for a few reasons really, but mostly because of the dashing of that comfort zone I've established around myself. In my mind I have a romanticized vision of life that is a lot less comfortable than the one I have now. I feel like every time I take a step in that direction I get scared and run back to my "stuff" though. This summer I have gotten myself into a situation where that won't be as much of an option as usual (hopefully). A small apartment with: one computer, one guitar, a nice pillow, no internet, no t.v. , and good books, oh and a chubby schep. I hope that I am able to start living with less things and less comforts. I hope that I start to enjoy it for the right reasons. I know that it will be rewarding.

I stay up late, to put off tommorow coming.

It never works.

The essays that I mentioned previously:

Why to not not start a startup

(looking back, I guess he talks about the open-mindedness more than the "obsession", but I think those things can go hand in hand.)

Very interesting read(s), and the reasons why (my experience) working at MS just isn't what I want:

Microsoft is dead

Wednesday, April 18, 2007


I love that there are people out there that are not only willing to say that the current situation with cell phones isn't good enough, but willing to put a ton of work into making it better.

Free your phone!


or two.

romans 12

This is so encouraging.

12I appeal to you therefore, brothers and sisters, by the mercies of God, to present your bodies as a living sacrifice, holy and acceptable to God, which is your spiritual worship. 2Do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your minds, so that you may discern what is the will of God—what is good and acceptable and perfect. 3For by the grace given to me I say to everyone among you not to think of yourself more highly than you ought to think, but to think with sober judgment, each according to the measure of faith that God has assigned. 4For as in one body we have many members, and not all the members have the same function, 5so we, who are many, are one body in Christ, and individually we are members one of another. 6We have gifts that differ according to the grace given to us: prophecy, in proportion to faith; 7ministry, in ministering; the teacher, in teaching; 8the exhorter, in exhortation; the giver, in generosity; the leader, in diligence; the compassionate, in cheerfulness. 9Let love be genuine; hate what is evil, hold fast to what is good; 10love one another with mutual affection; outdo one another in showing honor. 11Do not lag in zeal, be ardent in spirit, serve the Lord. 12Rejoice in hope, be patient in suffering, persevere in prayer. 13Contribute to the needs of the saints; extend hospitality to strangers. 14Bless those who persecute you; bless and do not curse them. 15Rejoice with those who rejoice, weep with those who weep. 16Live in harmony with one another; do not be haughty, but associate with the lowly; do not claim to be wiser than you are. 17Do not repay anyone evil for evil, but take thought for what is noble in the sight of all. 18If it is possible, so far as it depends on you, live peaceably with all. 19Beloved, never avenge yourselves, but leave room for the wrath of God; for it is written, “Vengeance is mine, I will repay, says the Lord.” 20No, “if your enemies are hungry, feed them; if they are thirsty, give them something to drink; for by doing this you will heap burning coals on their heads.” 21Do not be overcome by evil, but overcome evil with good.